Well, God is showing me a lot in my life right now. Let me start by this:
"Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect."
Romans 12:2
I read that verse, about being transformed by the renewing of your mind and realized I need to get rid of this disgusting selfishness in my heart before I can really love anyone the way they deserve. I need the Holy Spirit to overtake me.
I am sad on so many levels, but as a very nice (mystery) person left on my car window at work yesterday:
"Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”
Matthew 11:28-3
The Lord has really pushed me to a place where I NEED Him. I absolutely have realized my need for Him. I need to just love him endlessly and let him put everything back together His way. I need my God to save me. I need my God to show me Himself.
Another thing I am realizing is how childish I am. I need to grow up, and I am having a very hard time doing so. I need to get OVER myself... How many times can i try and fail? every time. I need to run to God and ask him to take my selfishness and childishness away, and to fix them. I need to take every broken relationship to Him, take my grandmother to him, take my mom to him, take my absolutely broken heart to him, take my selfishness, pride and childishness to the Lord...
I need to love God more.
You're sick? Look back to the verse you just quoted! You have hope.
ReplyDeleteJesus said, "It is not the healthy who need a doctor, but the sick. But go and learn what this means: 'I desire mercy, not sacrifice. For I have not come to call the righteous, but sinners."
Matthew 9:12&13
great point. wow.
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